[Note: While I just published this post today (8/13/23), it was actually drafted in December 2020. I will write more on this recovery about what followed, but know that it took another two years of hard and daily work for me to eventually experience a significant breakthrough with my struggles with anxiety and depression. But I did make it thru that difficult period sober (today I’m 23 days, 9 months and 21 years worth of days sober)…and still married to my only wife of now 42+ years!]
I have been struggling with anxiety for the last couple of years - well before the beginning of this global pandemic. While I have been going this, I trusted in the process I’ve been “practicing” since waking up sober 14 days, 8 months and 19 years ago — and at times the process takes on the quality of “trudging”. It’s hard, not easy. It requires lots and lots of effort — and even more surrendering and giving up on things, especially unhealthy habits of doing those things that simply no longer work.
And, equally important, has been the need to reach out for gobs of support, raising my hands asking for help! Both inside and outside the rooms of AA — in particular, to trained and skilled therapists.
